10/15/2026
I’m not going to hide it anymore. This one is testing every ounce of strength I have. She was ok when she got here and then she’s just been getting progressively worse. But I know that she will get worse before she gets her radiation and it truly breaks my heart. I feel so bad for her. I feel so guilty. I hope she knows I’m trying to help her. I hope she knows how many people are fighting for her to survive this. Today was scary. She woke up and her eye was weeping bloody fluid. Like a punch in the chest. We’ve been trying so hard.
We just have to get to Tuesday. That’s all we have to do. Get to Tuesday and we made it radiation. And the anxiety about the cost? For a dog I just met. What’s the other choice? I let her die and slowly wither away in pain on my watch? I can’t. I simply can’t. We’ve already spent $6,000 removing her eye, her ct scans and her treatment plan. Not including the $350 trip today. She is worth every penny though.
And everyone expects me to act normal and just carry on and act like I have the ability to think about anything else when I have a tiny little fragile life literally in my hands. My decisions either prolong or end her life. And it’s as simple as that.
Paris ended up with us for a reason. I’m trying not to fail her. I’m trying not to fail all of you. To not fail MollyDoodle. But above all, to not fail Paris. She is so incredibly loving and cuddly and tiny she doesn’t deserve to have to go through this.
We’re trying. But it’s hard. This one is really tough for me. ❤️
