10/06/2026
Yesterday I fulfilled a promise to Moana. 🌈💔
Moana was never the cat who needed to be in the middle of everything. She was independent, aloof, reclusive, and very particular about when (and how) she wanted affection. She had her favorite hiding places, her routines, and, of course, her own “personal” recliner. She lived life on her terms.
And I loved her exactly that way.
Moana came to me as a hurricane foster in 2020 from the Humane Society of the Treasure Coast. I picked her up from Pet Supplies Plus, "just until the storm passed". She hid the entire time she was with me. I was concerned that because of her extreme shyness, she might never be adopted. So she became my cat.
We exchanged pleasantries over the next 6 years, and on occasion she would allow me to pet her. She had funny little quirks and habits that I would observe from a distance. She was the quintessential cat.
Two days before I was scheduled to fly out to visit my mom for a week, I discovered a large tumor on her underside. The vet believed it was a mammary chain tumor, and it grew frighteningly fast, eventually ulcerating and bleeding. I knew the kindest thing I could do was make sure Moana never reached the point where her bad days completely replaced the good ones.
But Moana gave me one final gift that I will never forget.
Earlier this week, I gave her a warm bath to gently wash the dried blood from her legs and hopefully give her a little relief. Usually cats HATE water, but she seemed to enjoy the warmth. I wrapped her gently in a towel, dried her off and fully expected her to disappear back into one of her usual hiding places.
Instead, she jumped onto my bed.
In all the years I've had Moana, she had never slept in my bed with me. Not ONCE.
That night, she stayed.
She slept beside me all night.
I don't know why she chose that particular night, and maybe I'm not supposed to know. Maybe she was simply warm and comfortable. Maybe she wasn't feeling well and wanted to feel safe. Maybe, in her own very Moana way, she just needed me.
Whatever the reason, I'll treasure that night for the rest of my life.
Yesterday, Sunday, October 4th, I kept my final promise to her. I didn't wait until she couldn't eat. I didn't wait until she couldn't walk. I didn't wait until there was nothing left for her to enjoy. As heartbreaking as it was, I loved her enough to say, “you don't have to get any sicker than this.”
And now, her personal recliner is empty. That hurts.
But somewhere beyond the Rainbow Bridge, I hope my beautiful, stubborn, independent girl has already found herself another chair with one of my family members in heaven who knows how much I loved her.
Thank you for choosing my bed that one night, Moana.
Thank you for letting me take care of you.
Rest easy, sweet Moana Jean. You don't hurt anymore, and I'll see you again one day 🌈🐾❤️
P.S. Thank you to my friend Jon Antonelli for caring for her while I was out of town, to my friends at the Humane Society of the Treasure Coast for gently sending her to the Rainbow Bridge, and to a dear family friend whose text on Sunday morning gave me the courage to stick to my promise to Moana