09/15/2026
I needed to see this myself today as we're facing her in the face with Toby. It never gets easier no matter what.
You cannot outrun death. And even when you think you’ve outsmarted her, she is still there.
She’s not the monster you’ve been led to believe. She can be kind, soft, warm and gentle. She cannot help that in her wake she leaves grief, who can feel herself like a monster, but is actually made completely of love once you get to know her.
When you sit with death as often as I do, you learn not to fear her. In fact, you learn that life can be much more cruel than death, and it’s not the worst thing that can happen to an animal, or us. You learn that trying to avoid thinking of her, or pushing her away, ends up causing more problems. Instead, when you acknowledge her, and understand her, the fear dissipates and you realize that what death teaches you more than anything - is to be grateful for life.
The animals I walk home don’t fear death, and I’ve learned so much from them in that process. Death is just a doorway to the next step in our journey, and we can make it a beautiful experience. The sadness. The grief. The loss. That’s coming anyway. It’s not a linear process that we can predict and follow step by step. Whether we like it or not, death is inevitable, so sit with her. Even when I don’t like her, and wish she wouldn’t come so soon, I now understand her much better than before.
No, that doesn’t make it easier to do, but it does make it easier to bear. The heaviness that comes with death is lighter when you understand her better and accept her as much a part of life as air and water and breathing. In many ways, she is a friend to the animals who come here. A welcome relief from suffering and pain they’ve endured for too long.
Be grateful for every single day.
- Helen St. Pierre