06/17/2026
Sorry folks recently lost my best friend in life , the reason I got out of bed in the morning and whom gave my life happiness. After 16 wonderful years Jefferson aka bro bro lost his fight with cancer. The last week he was alive all we did was go to his favorite places that was great. The last 24 hours will haunt me forever. It's been a few months. Every night I get excited because he still visits me in my dreams, every morning I wake up crying because I know he is gone. I literally owe that dog my life as he saved it not once but twice. He taught me how to love again and not only live but live something more than yourself. I still talk to his ashes and take his leash on our morning walks in the park. It's been almost 3 months and I can't make it one time without crying my eyes out. I see him everywhere I go because he was always with me. I've lost a large chunk of my heart and everything that brought me joy.
For these reasons I can no longer do bidwell barkers page. Friends have asked me if I will get another dog. I say no, it would not be fair to that dog . The shoes are too big to fill. I have had dogs my whole life, but this one this one hurts so bad. I cry every day, don't like waking up because what truly made me happy and a better person is now gone. Honestly I look forward to death am not scared of it because I know as long as it comes natural I will get to be with Jefferson again. The 16 years I had with him is what I believe heaven is and I look forward to that again. For these reasons I can no longer continue this page will not be taking any clients.
Remember, your dog is part of your world but you are the world to your dog.
There are two things in life that will never lie to you , your gut and your dog.
You will never find true love n loyalty better than that if your dog. Their love comes without stipulations and is truly forever.
Treat your dog with the love and loyalty they have for you.
I question if man kind is made in God's image. I think dogs were. Humans are to flawed. Write down dog on a piece of paper and look at it in a mirror. It says it right there.
Just do something nice for your dog, they want nothing more than to make you happy. Return the favor.
I've lost both my mom and my dad, this hurts more than both. Maybe because of the innocence that dogs are , just remember you are your dog's world they love nothing more than you show them the same love they show you.
