10/12/2026
These are the moments as a breeder that break your heart completely and leave you feeling like a failure. 💔
Our darling little black boy was our runt, but with lots of help from me we thought he would be ok... on Thursday he started to take a turn so we had an emergency vet visit and some xrays and tests done. Unfortunately nothing was found. So we took him home and continued helping him as best we could. He looked like he may have been improving a little at first, but then today he hit a plateau... his vitals were fine, he was still nursing, but again he started to seem off. After dinner I realized he wouldn't latch correctly for the first time and rushed him to emergency again. After we arrived he started having seizures and took a dive downhill across all his vitals. 😭💔
Then came the decision hrs later that every breeder dreads, do we euthanize or do we keep letting him continue to seize and suffer through the night and HOPE he survives. With the vet's sympathetic honesty of his chances being grim at best, even with full hospitalization, we chose kindness and the devastating pain that brings with it.
As a breeder, I take full responsibility for my pups and my life revolves around their health and care. I hold them at birth with so much joy, cuddle them every day, love every minute of their little lives at home with me...and then on rare and heartbreaking days, like this one, I hold them, crying, whispering goodbye as they go too soon. 😭
Hug your pups tight for me. This pain is a reminder that we never know how long our lives will be blessed with their little tail wags and kisses.
Rest in peace my sweet little Blackie... you are so loved and will be deeply missed. 💔
9/28/26 - 10/11/26
