03/09/2026
To some this barn may look ordinary. To me this barn saved my life. Not exactly the building but the people and horses that occupy it. This was the barn where my life changed in an instant. It was at this barn, October 25 2023 that my aorta ruptured. I wasn’t planning to be there that day. I had intentions of being home. Relaxing, with Cylas 3 and Ronan nearly 2. Had I not changed my plans to include going there that day I honestly don’t believe I’d be here to make this post. Or to do anything that I’ve done since. I was fortunate to have people who were able to get me the vital emergency care that saved my life that day. Heading there this morning I was filled with anxiety. I was nervous and literally shaking. Today I was reminded of how important it can be to set down our burdens, to “leave it at the door” sometimes this applies to barn time and sometimes this applies to family time. I am not saying no not be authentic in yourself but letting go of energy that does not suit you in the moment can be tremendously helpful. Today I pulled up and sat for a moment. I took a couple of deep breaths and grounded myself. I left all my insecurities in the van. I went in and was welcomed to a barn that had missed me, they had missed my presence and my skills and most of all my heart. It was beyond a gift to reconnect with the horses and the people here. It was again something I had little hope of being able to do for some time. I was grateful to be able to leave on my own this time, and for the entire experience.