05/15/2017
I dreamed of you last night Sugar. I dreamt that I saw a new picture of your sweet face as I scrolled through Facebook. It shocked me to my core to see your face. I instantly knew it was you and I was shaking. You were alive. You were safe and warm and loved with a young couple whom had found you near the busy highway, dying in the brutal Wyoming winter that very week you went missing. Not knowing anyone else was frantically searching for you, they saved you from an unimaginable fate. One that I cannot bear to think of without completely falling apart. They nursed you back to health, as I once did, and they vowed to keep you safe forever and moved you to California. You looked so incredibly happy...and whole again. My heart was conflicted. Do I speak up and let them know that I too know and love this dog? That my heart has ached for you for nearly two years? Or do I let you live out the rest of your life with these lovely people who saved you when I could not?
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Then, just like that, I woke up. And I realized none of that ever actually happened. Tears running down my face, I realized that you are still gone without a trace and I am still heartbroken.
But that dream also made me realize that you are still very much with me everyday and that I do still have hope, though a small piece of that hope dwindles and dies a little each passing day. It's been 18 months since anyone has seen you and that's the reality I have to deal with now. Chances were stacked against you in the worst way when you went missing, but I know you endured unspeakable horrors before I ever met you and there is a light that shines inside you that cannot be dimmed, even when it seems all is lost. So maybe, just maybe, you made it Sugar...I want to believe that.
Anyway, I had to write this dream down. I had to document it for you. Whether you are still in this world or the next, my love and devotion to you remains the same. Unchanged. Unwavering. I will see you again someday Sugar. That promise I can keep.
Love always,
Your first friend in this cruel world
Shannon 💕