06/09/2026
long post because its necessary.
I’ve gone back and forth on whether or not to say anything publicly about this situation, but I feel like I should because there were a lot of plans, expectations, and people involved. My heart has been aching over this and my stomach churning over the anxiety that i've hurt someone.
For several months now, I had been planning a couple new herd additions in which one included future breeding plans that I was excited about. A lot of my upcoming goals for my herd were built around this pickup and the animals involved. Unfortunately, over the last few weeks it feels like life has just continued piling one thing after another on us- injuries (husband was kicked by a horse about 3 weeks ago and had internal bleeding), health issues (husband now has poison ivy rashes all over which he is very allergic to), unexpected problems (anything stupid and inconvenient that could happen, happened), and then ultimately the final straw that broke the camel's back and stopped our Ohio pick up trip entirely: a flat tire from a screw. We were packed up and preparing to leave when the low tire pressure light came on and only showed 8 PSI...
As cliché and unbelievable as the “flat tire” excuse sounds, it truly was the reality of what happened. This put a
major damper on us. I warned ahead of time that we'd either be late or not make it entirely but obviously this was not early enough for anyone to turn around and leave the extras behind thus creating frustration and financial loss. I pushed for whatever solution I could find but without a reliable vehicle and limited resources the chance became slimmer as time started to pass. I wouldn't make it there in time without being at least an hour to 2 hours late. Not fair to the other party. The only choice was to cancel.
I know this doesn’t undo the stress, inconvenience, disappointment, or financial impact this caused on the other side, and I’m not going to pretend it does. I fully understand why emotions are high, and I genuinely am sorry for the position this put another person (that I considered a friend) in. Even though the circumstances themselves were outside of my control, I still understand that at the end of the day I was unable to follow through, and that affected other people besides myself. I cannot apologize enough and there will be no making this better no matter how hard I try.
This whole situation has honestly devastated me more than I can really explain. I have cried for literal hours over this until my eyes were swollen and red because I truly cared about the plans involved, and the people affected by everything falling apart. I can't fix the hurt I've caused despite it being out of my control. ��These two additions that I was supposed to pickup were very important to our herd as well- one being a replacement and the other a jr herdsire purchase (plus something extra for breeding season, which I later backed out of and caused even more grief on their end.). They meant a lot to me and have a major impact on future plans for the herd, and now I have to completely rethink those plans moving forward but whatever. More than anything though, I hate knowing another person was negatively impacted because life completely unraveled at the worst possible time.
There was never any ill intent, dishonesty, or lack of care involved here. I truly did want everything to work out, and I truly wish I could rewind time and change how things unfolded. Since I can’t, all I can do is acknowledge the situation honestly, apologize sincerely for the impact it caused, and move forward from here.
I genuinely pray for and wish the best moving forward for everyone involved.
