13/07/2026
Advice please.
Does anyone know how to save all the photos and videos on the Starfield page so I can delete this page now please ?
I would like to thank all the followers over the years, the kind, generous people that donated, helped, turned up complete strangers and helped when it was needed.
The people that i met and still have contact with, that's you Paul Holroyd, Maggie Richards 🤣, yep just you 2 !! Thank you 💙❤️
Also a very special thank you to Terry Regan for your continued support for all these years. I know you've not been able to come and help , here or when I was still in Devon, but your presence has never gone unnoticed. Thank you ♥️
I found over the years, people I thought cared about my animals, really cared actually never did. I know people are busy, but Penny opened up opportunities for people but that has been overlooked and forgotten. Some lied about where they were instead of being truthful. Thought we meant more than that !
Penny was the most important little animal person in this sanctuary, not any higher or better or more loved, but she is what Sanctuary and Rescue is all about.
The loss of Penny has really knocked me down, more than my heart attack a year ago, more than my mum or dad dying, more than anything. I will never be able to explain how the absence of a little disabled sheep changed my life, my thoughts and my heart , forever. My life now will never ever be the same again.
Many people said it was wrong to let her live, told me I wasn't doing enough, told me I was doing things wrong. When did ANYONE do what I did with Penny over the last 7 years. She was found in a field, 2 weeks old, covered in maggots, skin and bone, fused legs that wouldn't and couldn't bend and she couldn't even lift her head, let alone stand or feed.
You see, everyone forgets the last 7 years of total dedication, love, sleepless nights, heartache when things weren't going right, illness Penny had that she over came. The physio, the aids I purchased, the money spent, begged borrowed and stoll. The back breaking 12 hour, 7 nights a week job i worked to carry the sanctuary on. The nights I carried a 30kg little sheep up and down a tiny, winding , steep staircase to bed with me. The backache, the brusises, the exhaustion. The time out to fetch hay, go shopping for animal feed, collect meds for the animals, the places i needed to go just for the animals, travel time. The looking after of another 120 animals, thecnew and sick rescues, the collection of them, some sick, some not. Feet, worming, antibiotics, pain relief, muck outs, the list is endless, not forgetting my seriously bad health, not just my heart but mental health struggles, homelessness, all ON MY OWN. The constant doubters in my ears, the non believers I had to listen to.
Who was there, who is still here now, NO ONE. But everyone is ready to criticise, or they've just disappeared in the time when just a message to help Penny rest in peace knowing she was loved and admired would of been kind. But no !
I brought a beautiful boy for someone, as their own and they came, yes, they loved then he was replaced. They didn't even bother to go and say hello to him. He looked, he waited but they didn't acknowledge him. I don't care about the money, it was his face, the utter sadness and despair in his eyes that I had to witness broke me. But hey, he's happy and he is LOVED, not just for a week or 2 but for his entire life !
Kind and caring people sent messages, a few I never knew followed the page, which was so very touching and thoughtful. Others that knew Penny very well ... ???!!! ?
My thoughts on people have changed over the years. My sister was right, no one is really your friend, they take till there is nothing left that they want. This may be harsh, horrible, I've actually gone past caring. Its the truth. Friends are never really your friends, once in a while you meet 1 or 2 that have your back always but the rest !
I've been rescuing my Animal family since Star was born in 1998.
Someone said to me then, Jane, you may have money now, cars, holidays, jewellery but if you bring that foal back to Leicester from the New Forest you will never have any money ever again, and you will never be rich.
Do you know what, I am the richest person in the world. I have more love in my heart and soul for my animals that could ever cover the world times over.
But that's the price you pay. Love comes unconditionally for me, that's to people too but I've been slagged off, ripped off, bullied, beaten, trodden down to the ground, told im a worthless pieces of s**t, lied too by people I loved and trusted, ignored till they wanted something, and used. They've changed their minds on things they promised for me and the animals. People I trusted ! I've shared other sanctuaries fund raisers, over and over, when did they do it for us ? I have given everything to people , every last penny I've given away till I had nothing but I am still rich with my animals. Everything I have ever loved has been taken away, bit by bit, destroyed by people that don't even know me.
I've been told how to do things over and over and over again about my animals. This by people that couldn't even safely look after my animals for 24 hours. Told I was wrong, reported to DEFRA, the list, it goes on forever.
I've seen many people from other sanctuaries write a piece like this and wonder why they aired it on their page. I get it now. To be let down and slated when all you do is work ever hour there is everyday, without sleep or food, ( that isnt a lie or exaggerated), its really difficult. But I don't care anymore, all I care about are my family and my animal family.
There is so much more I could say but what is actually the point , I'll be slagged off for this, forgotten tomorrow but do I care anymore, no !
Penny is someone that taught me so much, Penny will be with me always, in my heart with Star and everyone before them and after. And I can honestly say, I am the ONLY person that will ever or has ever had the privilege of knowing their love.
Who can actually say their life has changed so many lives, not just changed them but saved them ??
And so that's it.
Starfield is no more. Starfield is only a word. Me and my animal family are what we are and that is US, FOREVER, BEING OUR FAMILY.
People may not like some of the message I've written, the truth digs hard and hurts.
Again, thank you so much for the kind words and messages FOR PENNY, your kindness will always be remembered.
Together, my animals and me, we are free
