09/02/2026
Today tested every ounce of my patience, my trust in the process, and my confidence as a trainer.
For three months, we’ve been working on connecting, trying to help this horse process his anxiety. We made small bits of progress, but that underlying tension was still hanging on. I knew today was the day to try laying him down—a boundary I had only ever navigated with someone nearby guiding the wheel.
An hour and a half in, the self-doubt started creeping in. Even though I was adjusting, staying quiet, and doing everything I’d been taught, we were stuck. At hour two, that little voice telling me to walk away was getting louder.
So, we paused. Reset. Listened.
I decided to try his right side instead, honoring where he seemed to be directing me earlier.
Another thirty minutes passed in a total stalemate. I was so close to calling it a day.
And then, like magic, he let go.
Before his body even hit the sand, I heard the grunts and felt the exact moment all that stored anxiety just melted away. He laid down, rested his head right in my lap, and we just stayed there together for 15 minutes. Pure, quiet relief.
I almost gave up today. I am so damn glad I didn’t. Trust your timing, listen to the horse, and don't walk away right before the magic happens. 💛🐴