06/07/2026
Coming to terms with fighting a losing battle….
Just shy of a month before he left. I remember this day so clearly. It was the most beautiful afternoon, his favourite weather…warm with a cool breeze, much like today was. I took him out and just laid with him. He had all his blankies but somehow always wiggled his body over to the grass….grounding himself. His peaceful snores echoed in my ears.
There was this deep sense of knowing we didn’t have many of these days left…so I needed to make the most of every special moment. I remember this afternoon like it was yesterday, partly because it was so perfect, but also because it felt like one of the first days I really started to wrap my head around the reality that he wasn’t going to be here much longer.
Looking back it was like he planned it all. Every moment, slowly watching, waiting…making sure I would be ok, and slowly letting go a little more.
I will never forget that afternoon. One of the most heartbreaking but beautiful days of our final month together 🤍🪽
