03/10/2017
i have been meaning to post this forever, so here goes 😱
i have to admit ive been confused and very unhappy with my small side business, hopelessly jaded. i have always LOVED creating and with the support and push from loved ones, i began to sell my creations. i have changed up the product a lot and i still HATE it. every single piece i HATE!! i know im talented and can make amazing things, but the past couple years all i seem to be doing is killing myself over product! different colors, different options, different styles, more, more, more! i have caused myself mental AND physical pain by working myself to death. but what ends up happening is that the product is lesser because i dont have enough time to make them the amazing way i want. im just tired of it. i want my life back! i want to make art again!! i want to put MY ENTIRE SELF into my pieces, not one small slice of me.
im ashamed of the product i make, im ashamed of the way my booth looks. im ashamed of my logos & biz cards and everything. when i see others businesses and the amazing work they do, i feel so ashamed and want to hide. i have avoided my craft friends & events because im embarrassed (sorry friends). i have avoided opportunities & shows & restocking shops. i have avoided emails & custom orders. my office is a mess so i have an excuse not to work. i have even not cashed checks from shops as they feel undeserved. i pretty much gave up last year...
I KNOW IM BETTER and want to create nothing but the best. i want to be a part of the handmade craft world here in STL. i want to attend events for fun & volunteer & work for shows & participate in this scene, & teach & help others. i want to do collaborations with other artists and just have fun again!! i dont want all my time to go to making product. i want to create ART.
my life changed in a flash last year. im insanely happy with the direction my life is taking and i want this business to work with me, not control me. i want this side business to be fun, im not trying to get rich! big changes coming soon friends. i want out of womens jewelry for the most part, thats for sure. im not even enjoying leather being my main material. i LOVE creating with studs & rivets and will be focusing more heavily on studded items. STUDS EVERYWHERE 🙀🙀
the geek culture has been very important to me and helped form me into the person i am. i want my stuff to represent me & what i love because i know there are others out there that love the same things.
i have been struggling with giving it all up, but i also want to give it one more chance. be on the look out for lots of new stuff this year, especially Star Wars related items. cosplay accessories are also on the horizon. i will also be adding new materials such as fabric & wood. lots more home decor & wall art items, possibly even some small furniture items. gonna take this year to play around a bit!
other big news!! there is a new partner in hopelessly jaded and i cant wait for everyone to meet him 😍. his talented, crafty, star warsy brain has already added so much to the business and i cant wait to show you our new creations!!
if any of my crafty friends have any advice or encouragement, please help!! i cant do this job without the amazing support & love from my friends and family!! 😍😍😍
also, facebook is lame so find hopelessly jaded on instagram for lots of pics of new stuffs. 😉
