07/13/2026
Hello everyone.
I'm sorry for the absence. My personal life has been chaotic, full of appointments, flare ups, addiction to Skyrim RP, and a failing romantic relationship that has now ended after 3 years. I'm uh, in a rough spot right now, and have no idea how I'm going to exist, where I'm going to live, and if I even have people in my life who could help. I'm a disabled,chronically ill, mentally ill mess of a person, that has no income, no family, and no safety net. I'm, at this point, terrified of the future and if I'll be on the streets or not.
My life has always been a train wreck of trying to survive through hardships and barely coming out of the other end in one piece. I don't know how I've gotten to this point, but im still here, and I still plan on being here. I don't know how the next few months will be. I don't know if I'll be safe. I don't know if I'll have a place to sleep. I have friends who I'm hoping will assist me, but to be honest, I come with the inability to work a regular job, have to get help from time to time, and have a couple bills that have to be paid for. Why would anyone want me on their couch, siphoning their income in this already dystopian hellscape we call the US?
I want to get back to posting. Maybe I can get a tiny bit of money from here that'll help with something. I'm considering other ways I can get a little bit of income as well, but my options are like, 3 things, and I don't want to do one of them, but I don't really know what else to do. I'm still waiting on the appeal to my disability case, which hasn't even been assigned yet. With how my country thinks of me, I don't know if I'll even get that anyway.
I'm sorry I've been away. I wish I could say things are better for me, but that would be a lie. I'm trying to take care of myself and stick with it. I want to be better to myself. I want to continue to live and have fun and enjoy what little life I'm able to now.
Thank you for being here. Thank you for sticking with me. I love you all π€