04/20/2026
Remembering a legend 🕯️🐾
The process of making this video was…
Heartbreaking. Heartwarming. Sad. Beautiful. Nostalgic. Surprising when seeing old footage. Joyful at what we created. Grief. Worse than physical pain. Silent screaming grief. Obligation to create a memorial and eulogy that I know I can never ever do justice to because he was beyond special, not just to me, to us all.
I had to write a script or I would just cry. That took an entire day of crying. Then filming it and redoing my makeup until finally I just filmed until I could get through it without sobbing. Then I forgot mascara and had to use a filter. Gathering the footage of Enzo opened the door to an entire afternoon between jobs of grieving the loss of a dog that most people never really got to see the way I did. What you saw barely scratched the surface of how cool he was. I’m a sh*tty camera person and I just use my phone. But still he was majestic. Imagine if I had known wtf I was doing.
Then there’s editing. As I add the layers the story and photos play over and over and over and try as I might, I get lost in a memory or a wonderful adventure and then I’m crying again, this time in deep gratitude for the grace of God in my life to give me Enzo.
The reality is that this has encompassed my entire life, the process of losing Enzo slowly over the last six months.
I’m not going to lie about what’s going on with me. At the same time, maybe someone like me can learn from this and avoid the same outcome with better planning.
No one thinks their dog is going to die at 9. No one thinks anything is going to happen until it happens. When it does, the goal is you have a community of people around you that care and want to help and see you pull thru.
I’m choosing to be honest and vulnerable about everything that’s going on because we’re in a time when someone can be literally dying inside and tap dancing in a video like nothing is wrong.
I don’t want to be one of those people and to do that, I have to be brave enough to tell the whole truth.
If you’d like to help my family during this transitionary time, or whatever you call what’s happening:
Cashapp: $JerriScherff
Venmo: @ Jerri-Scherff
Thank you for your love, prayers, and support. I miss my best friend and the life we had together. Part 3