10/06/2026
This is the last photo I took with Baby Ruthie. This was taken at 1:15am on 10/6/26, and I just wanted to hold her little hand. I got her up for her first feeding and she did not want to eat, that was at 12:20am. She was warm, but struggling to keep her head up.
I put her down and got a warm rag to see if I could potty her, since she was give dewormer and had a stool softener, but she couldn’t go. So we walked around and talked a bit. I laid her back in the incubator for a few moments and I heard her cry. Not a loud cry, but a painful cry.
I got some blankets and this warm sack and tucked inside so she wouldn’t get cold and we sat together. I told her stories about teaching and she would grunt or meow randomly. But the painful cries came again.
Her chances of survival were small, but Ruthie wanted to be alive. She wanted to eat and play. She was curious and opinionated. Somewhere along the journey, Ruthie got tired. She dug her little razor blades into my finger and I told her it was okay. That she could rest and be free. She was too tired to fight, and at 2:08am, Ruthie said goodbye to me forever.
Baby Ruthie will be carried in my heart forever.
I will miss her sass.
I will miss her little bites.
I will miss her curiosity.
Ruthie is with her siblings now, resting with God. I told her my Grannie was there and I told her to give her a snuggle from me.
Ruthie Jane left this world loved, warm, and knowing she was important. Have a wonderful time in heaven.
Courtney & your foster siblings.