05/08/2026
Hi Everyone, unfortunately, I have been struggling to keep up with everything the past year and a half since James passed, and since being back from Disney, I have found myself in a dark place.
The company I worked at for 25yrs, declined another flexiable working request (3 since James died) and with River starting University and Dakota starting school in September, the stress of being able to manage the staggered part time starts with Dakota, and all the school holidays on my own, with no flexiable working support from the company, caused me to have anxiety/panic attacks and into a depressed mood.
On top of struggling to be present for Dakota (and River), doing the cooking, cleaning, gardening, shopping, water changes on the tanks etc and anything else that comes up, it has all been too much, that Blackwater UK keeps being neglected which has made me feel like I have been failing James and my girls.
It has caused me to make some big decisions, which I must admit, once I had made them, they have lightened the mental load hugely and I know I have/am doing the right things.....
1. I submitted my letter of resignation on Friday via email to my works - I have no job to go into currently but im sure I will find something (looking for something term time only).
2. I am also selling the stock (and Blackwater UK) to somone who will have the passion and knowledge it deserves. I will give you all more information soon, once it has been confirmed on their end. π€
I will put a note on the website to say that no orders will be sent out for a while as we will need time to transfer everything over. So stay tuned. π
I will be keeping our tanks going, as I love them, so will still be apart of the amazing fish keeping community but its time for me to admit I was out of my depth and have been struggling to stay above the water.
If anyone wants to follow me personally to stay up to date with us my page is Leah Sheen
I will keep you updated on here with regards to hopefully an amazing new start for Blackwater UK. π€π